A couple of poems! (Circles, An Okay Crazy, Something I' Can't Pronounce)

Couple of little poem-type things I wrote for your entertainment/my sanity!

This one is called Something I Can't Pronounce

I don't even know how to feel anymore

Because what I'm feeling now has me so confused

I'm wrapped in an ecstasy I can't even begin to pronounce.

I get chills at just a thought

Moths flutter in my insides

Not butterflies, no,

Because the fluttering is broken

Like I'm beginning to accept it

That this is my twisted fairytale

The one I've always dreamed of

even written about

I get weak when I think of it

Then I can't think at all

And I don't know what to do

Except to talk to you

Awaking in the phantom grip

Of your arms each day

Makes my heart race

And my head hurt a little bit

And all I can do is lay there and let it pass

My joints feel like jelly

And I can't even stand

But I don't care

Because it feels so marvelous

And I'm drugged

With an ecstasy I can't even begin to pronounce.

 An Okay Crazy

Lying in the dark

Can't sleep

My hair stands up on end

IdiosynCRAZIES

I wonder if you've noticed.

Remembering scars,

I miss you.

What I hear

Makes me think of you

But I see my best friend

In a white prom dress

And I remember

What the four of us

Discovered that day

That changed everything.

My thoughts go back to you

"Makes no sense at all,

Makes no sense to fall,

Falling in love".

Can't see what

Made you fall

-I'm so screwed up

I'm a work in progress-

Have to let the paint dry

Before you can fix the mistakes.

So long I kept to myself

And now I have

More than I could have ever

DREAMED?!?!

I'm even more insane

But I think this is an alright crazy

I'm scattered again

Can't get straight

Even though

I'm the only one!

Just want to see you

So far away

But I'm addicted anyway

And I'm jonesing bad right now

Circles


Circles and circles
Is that what I see or what I'm doing?
My back aches, my stomach hurts
I feel numb
But I feel fine
I'm not upset, I'm not falling
I feel...odd
Which is saying something
Because, well, it's me
Don't ask me what
Because I don't even know
I just know it's Chaos
Anari, Rommel
Music pounds around my head
Earth moves beneath my feet
Circles and Circles
in my head
Is it just my changes
that have brought this on?
I feel disconnected
Like I'm sitting outside
Watching my body live
But my essence is floating around
Hmm.
People wonder why I have so many characters?
They are my different shades,
A bit like my muses
I absorb and become them whenever I want
Circles and circles!
I'm lost
But eventually I'll find an end
Once I can feel again
Or even just understand
the meaning of circles

And that's all for today!!